I’m terrible at making decisions and Martin is not that much better than me. So every time that we have to make one it is fairly stressful. But the time has come around again to make a decision about the next step of our lives. Martin quit his job last week and thus a decision has to made about what now. As usual I began to feel a little overwhelmed pretty quickly. However in my quaker meeting the other day I was sitting in silence listening for some guidance from God. Slowly as I reflected on some things I had been reading over the previous week it came to me that the reason I am so bad at making decisions is I never make one decision. When we have to make a decision about what next I always fall into the trap of trying to decide what will be after that and then after that and then after that. The truth is that I cannot know that and trying to make a decision today based on something that might happen in ten years will of course be stressful. It came to me that the only decision that we can make is the next one. Then once we have made that and seen what happens we can then make the next one. This requires trust of course but really it’s the only way forward for us.