Last night I had a dream about magnums. In it I ate two and I felt really sick. I am not sure why I dreamed this as I have not had a magnum in years. Anyway just now I ducked out to buy a coffee and I saw an ad for magnums and it made me feel really queasy. In fact I still feel a bit grose. I didn’t realise dreams could affect life so physically like that.
Today I am sick. Went to bed last night feeling fine and then woke up an hour later with the scratchiest throat, throbbing head, running nose and a really sore nose too. I have never actually had a sore nose before but it sucked. I am not very good at being sick. I really am not one of those people who just gets on with life when they are sick. I just stay home and get better. Some may see that as a weakness but I choose to see it as a positive. Anyway I slept in til 11.30 and then got up and went to the shops for some juice. I picked orange and ginger juice and boy o boy was it good. I felt so much better almost straight away. I also bought some mushrooms, garlic, chilli, leak and am making a super healthy, flu curing soup. And I think it might be yum too. In fact when down at the shops I bumped into Geoff and then Jo came and bumped into us. So Geoff said we should have lunch but I refused. I said no I am sick and nothing I could buy would be as good as this soup and another lie down. So now I am going to eat my soup and lie down.
It was my mum’s birthday too yesterday so Happy Birthday Mum. I love you heaps and looking forward to seeing you.
I have been a pretty slack blogger lately, yes I know but right now there are five other people in my house and I am blogging so that’s commitment. I don’t imagine my mum will be impressed but I reckon Robert Howie might be.
So I am blaming October. The October tiredness that I was talking about earlier this month has followed me right through. Uni has been especially taxing. However the end is nigh. On November 5 I will be finished uni forever, for good and I will be a teacher. Scary. And that week I am going to the Indigo Girls and Xavier Rudd so yay. Then in December I am having like two and half weeks off for only claiming four days annual leave. Yay again.
The other thing that I am blaming is the big decision making process that I am going through. I don’t think I’ll go into too much detail about that but right now Martin and I trying to work out what we are doing next year and I really don’ know what to do. I keep reminding myself that I am very privileged because the reason that I am struggling so much is that both options are so good which means I am very lucky but it is still causing me much anguish. Pray for discernment for me if you’re the praying kind.
Today I am back to work after spending two days at home pretty much in bed most of the time. I watched three movies and read half a book so that was a pretty good effort. Could have been nice if I didn’t feel so crappy and with the ever present feeling of guilt that I wasn’t at work or doing uni.
I thought I had the flu but this morning I worked out that it was actually hayfever. Itchy eyes, sore throat, very runny nose and incredibly groggy in the head. Not very pleasant I tell you what. When I was growing up my mum always got hayfever. I often thought I am so pleased that it didn’t happen to me but now it seems it does. Anyway now I have worked out what it is I have taken an anithistimene and I am feeling a bit better. Though a little drowsy even though it supposed to be non drowsy.
This morning I went for my first swim of the season with Libby. Boy oh boy was it lovely. Even the fact that my goggles kept getting water in them and my swimmers were too big couldn’t ruin it for me. I am very much looking forward to swimming again and getting my fitness back. After Gem and I had the Big Vegetarian Breakfast at the cafe down the road. There is nothing I like more than coming back from a swim and having a hot shower and then having a yummy breakfast in the sun with someone special. Life feels good.
My mum just rang to tell me that Maggie (my dog) had died. She has been sick for a long time now and when mum and Keith got home today she was having trouble breathing and appeared very distressed. So my mum rang the Vet to make an appointment to have her put down but then she died about half an hour later. I am sad, she was a very special dog and we loved her a lot but I am happy that she is no longer sick and that mum was with her and she wasn’t on her own.
Maggie was really good friends with my friend Peter who died earlier this year. In fact I am convinced she loved him more than any of us, he used to cook her all this exotic meat that we never did. Anyway mum said that she had an image of Maggie and Peter meeting in heaven, both happy and healthy. I am not sure (nor is she) that, that is the way it works but it is a really nice image to hold on to as I let go.
I forgot to mention in the last post that we have some really, really, really good news. Teresa’s (who I wrote about a couple of weeks back) daughter Paola may have been found. A couple of weeks ago Martin’s dad, who used to be a police officer talked to someone he knew who is quite high up the ranks in the force and the other day he called to say that he has found her. Teresa (or no one she knows) has seen her yet so I guess I have to wait until then to confirm it but it is looking pretty good. Seems pretty crazy that Teresa can spend 5 months searching all over the country and begging the police and anyone to help her and gets nowhere and then someone else can make a phone call and a month later there she is but I guess that’s how it works. Anyway enough of that I am just so grateful that she may be back with her mum soon. Thanks to everyone who prayed.
I too did the personality test that James and Ryan did. I like personality tests. Unlike many people I know I am happy to be boxed.
Your personality type is ENFJ.
Extraverted (E) 82% Introverted (I) 18%
Intuitive (N) 52% Sensing (S) 48%
Feeling (F) 90% Thinking (T) 10%
Judging (J) 77% Perceiving (P) 23%
Here a description that I got here of an ENFJ. It’s very focused on the good things but I guess that’s okay.
ENFJs are the benevolent ‘pedagogues’ of humanity. They have tremendous charisma by which many are drawn into their nurturant tutelage and/or grand schemes. Many ENFJs have tremendous power to manipulate others with their phenomenal interpersonal skills and unique salesmanship. But it’s usually not meant as manipulation — ENFJs generally believe in their dreams, and see themselves as helpers and enablers, which they usually are.
ENFJs are global learners. They see the big picture. The ENFJs focus is expansive. Some can juggle an amazing number of responsibilities or projects simultaneously. Many ENFJs have tremendous entrepreneurial ability.
ENFJs are, by definition, Js, with whom we associate organization and decisiveness. But they don’t resemble the SJs or even the NTJs in organization of the environment nor occasional recalcitrance. ENFJs are organized in the arena of interpersonal affairs. Their offices may or may not be cluttered, but their conclusions (reached through feelings) about people and motives are drawn much more quickly and are more resilient than those of their NFP counterparts.
ENFJs know and appreciate people. Like most NFs, (and Feelers in general), they are apt to neglect themselves and their own needs for the needs of others. They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. ENFJs often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.
TRADEMARK: “The first shall be last”
This refers to the open-door policy of ENFJs. One ENFJ colleague always welcomes me into his office regardless of his own circumstances. If another person comes to the door, he allows them to interrupt our conversation with their need. While discussing that need, the phone rings and he stops to answer it. Others drop in with a ‘quick question.’ I finally get up, go to my office and use the call waiting feature on the telephone. When he hangs up, I have his undivided attention!
I am at work and it is Saturday - that sux but well I love my job so I shouldn’t complain and I will of course get some time in lieu.
I am at work because I have to speak at a Mass tonight about Compeer so I am here picking up the things I need and practising the speech a bit. I am a little nervous but it should be okay.