Just over two weeks to go until my due date although I am seriously hoping it will be before that, I am struggling a lot. I am so uncomfortable all the time and tired and I am going to the toilet what feels like every ten minutes. Especially bad on these freezing cold nights. My back aches and my hands and feet are all swollen and are often tingly. It’s called carpal tunnel syndrome apparently, it’s common enough and no harm to baby or me but fairly unpleasant. I am so looking forward to not being pregnant. I am also so looking forward to meeting the baby and feeding her and holding her and all those things. The waiting is killing me. We saw the midwife yesterday and all is good. Heartbeat is nice and strong and baby is positioned well for birth. Just needs to happen now. Please.

The other thing I am so over is the election. I usually keep myself pretty informed politically and often find it quite interesting but at the moment I have pretty much just shut off. I find it all so depressing. The way they all just attack and attack and attack, it feels like watching the ancient Roman Gladiators and the media feeds off it like vultures. Not to mention I get really down about the fact that on most of the issues that are really important to me the two major parties do not differ overly. I feel like perhaps Labor tried but we still live in a very fearful, materialistic and not very compassionate Australia and they are now bowing down to the very worst in us rather than encouraging the best. The Greens are still trying I guess and there are some great candidates in the party but as a whole I am not convinced they are fully ready to lead the country, not that, that’s a possibility anyway, and they can behave as equally aggressive and bitter. Sometimes I wonder if a benevolent dictatorship really is the way to go and I start to despair about bringing a child into such a world. So I guess I am becoming another fairly uninformed Australian and perhaps I will not use my vote as wisely as I could but for the benefit of my spirit and my soul and the desire to be positive about the world I will be raising my child in, I have tuned out.