I have been a bit of a mess this last week.  Since the robbery I been really jumpy.  People will often tap me on the shoulder or try to sel me something on the street and I practically jump out of my skin everytime.  I am super sensitive to every look I get which makes me tense.  I am even aware of looks between other people which I always end up thinking are about me.  I just want to relax but can´t seem to. 

Not to mention things I used to do on my own like go to Piura I don´t want to do anymore unless I am with Martin.  I can wander busy streets in Chulu but if I am far from home I want someone with me and fairly soon I find myself needing to get home as all my hyper alertness makes going out tiring.  It´s all very annoying. 

The thing I hate most though is that I am not doing many things I love doing here because I can´t get it together.  I don´t walk in the hills or anywhere alone.  I am not going to the pool which is partly as my goggles were robbed but also because the idea of going there does not appeal at all.

I am told this is all very normal which is good to hear otherwise I think I would feel like I was losing my mind.  I feel a bit silly as in the end nothing really happened but people, mostly my mum, keep telling me not to say that and not underestimate the fear I experienced.  I hope I can get it together soon though so I can enjoy my last weeks here a bit more.